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 Hello,and God Bless! I just wanted to share a little about myself and my testimony. I was raised to know God and my mother was faithful in teaching me. She was raised catholic and then started going to a non-denominational church with a friend and then became filled with the Holy Ghost one night while rocking me to sleep. She dedicated me to God when I was a baby and for that I am eternally grateful! I was determined in my heart to live for God from a very young age. I gave my life and heart to God and was filled with the Holy Ghost at 8 years old.  Of course, the devil had plans to try to destroy that. Around this time frame I had been violated by a family member. Thank God it did not do any physical harm, but unfortunately it did temporary mental harm.  As I grew older and pushed away the fact that this had happened, I was faced with yet a more horrifying experience. At such a vulnerable young age of sixteen,I had unfortunately experienced what rape was. My innocence was taken from me. Prior to this happening I had made a promise to God that I would be faithful to Him and save myself for marriage. The devil took that and ran with it. He had set a trap for me and I never saw it coming. Shortly after this took place the same family member that violated me when I was 8, found out what happened and used it to his advantage and yet once again tried to violate me. This then caused the memories that I had pushed away to re-surface. I felt like I was going crazy. I felt like it was all my fault. I was hurt,angry and ashamed. I felt I had let God down,and that there was nothing I could do to fix it. I began to look to others and not look to God as much as I had. I began to try to seek happiness in people and things around me. I found myself in relationships that were not healthy. I ended up pregnant at 17 years old. I then had two more children and found myself in what I thought was a never ending abusive relationship. I felt trapped. I thought I would never get out, but I knew I had to. I found myself looking to God more and more for help, but it just felt like it would never end. I gave up. I wanted to die. There were times that I almost did due to the abuse. I just didn't care whether I lived or died. I felt that my kids would be better off without me. I then found myself looking to things again and people to try to make myself happy. I started going out to clubs and drinking, and then found myself in a place that I told myself I never wanted to go. I was having anxiety attacks from all the mess I was in. I turned to prescription drugs,anti-depressents and anti-anxiety meds. I ended up hooked to them, before ever realizing it. I began drinking on the meds, and then hanging out with wrong people and experimenting with new things. I was caught up in the world. I was someone else. It was not me. I allowed something to take over me. It was the devil. Yet, I had not realized that until much later. I knew within myself I should not be doing it, and I knew I was not happy,but I just couldn't find a way out. All the while I still prayed to God and heard Him speak but I would not listen. Finally He had to get my attention! One night on the way home from a club, I fell unconcious at the wheel due to being intoxicated from mixing drugs and alcohol. I was right around the corner from my house and I almost died. I woke up and I was on the wrong side of the rode and was heading towards a telephone pole. I know without a doubt in my mind it was God that woke me up. I went home and layed on my bathroom floor weeping and crying out to God. I repented for all I had done and decided from that point on I was going to do things much differently. Thank God He had His hand on me and protected me, now I am alive and living free for God and no longer on my way to hell living in bondage and living for the devil. I used to dance in the clubs for the devil, now I dance in churches for Jesus! I give God all the Glory for what He has done in my life! Now that I have rededicated my life to God He has Blessed me so! After getting out of the abusive relationship sometime before this took place I had met a man that became a christian around the same time that I decided to rededicate my life to God. Whom I loved dearly and thought I would be with for the rest of my life.  But unfortunetly, I had to go through the agony and pain of divorce. I have remained faithful to God through it all.  I never want to go back to my old life. I lean on Him for everything in my life. He is the only way! And I know He will bring me the right man of God into my life. That is my testimony!
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anointed
2007-11-17


Hello dancer4jesus30: My name is Victoria and I want to share two of my testimonies with you. Number one I lived in a neiborhood the became drug invested. I was a single mother of three sons from the age of 1 to 5 years of age. I had rented a TV and VCR from Rent a Center. The truck came a delivered it. I always kept the bathroom light on for the children to go to the bathroom and the night light on the stove because I am a night muncher well that night I was going to the bathroom which was at the top of the stairs and you could see the light on in the kitchen well it was off and I said to myself I know I turned on the light then I heard some moving down stairs I thought it was a rodent. I was living in the intercity of Philadelphia which rodents are normal. So prceeded to go down the steps and when I got to the bottom someone grab me swung me on a chair straddled over me to the point that I could not move my arms and had his hand over my mouth and something at my neck my I thought was I'm going to die. But my grandmothers' voice came into my mind kick him my grandmother was from the south she always told her granddaughters' when a boy get out of hand with you kick then where it hurts so that's what I did the next thing I remember standing at my front door with a carpet knife in my hand and the man was running down the street. They did catch him. During the hearing process I found out that he was an vietnam soldier and weighed 285lbs. He had the power to kill me . I believed that God sent and angel of protection to fight that battle, because I don't remember how I got that weapon from him. He did cut me I had 34 stitches across my neck and inch fron my jugular vien but my neck was open where you could see white meat.That was 23 years ago. Secondly; In 2006 I was diagnosed with leukemia cancer which was in the blood. First fear came over me because I had a uncle who died from the same thing and then the Holy Spirit brought to mind " BY HIS (Jesus Christ) YOU ARE HEALED" and I told the doctor that's what you say but my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ says different. I didn't receive the diagnosis into my spirit and today I am totally healed. I know that I know God has a purpose for my life. What an Mighty God we serve All Praises and Honor be to God and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!!!!!!!!!!! May the Peace of God rest upon you my sister in Christ.
   
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